why oh why

~ ErNiE_aMiRa_sSc_JuLi3J3PoN ~ You held my heart. You took care of it, kept it safe beside yours. Loved it, cherished it, put it on a pedastal. Then you tore it apart piece by piece, you destroyed my heart. You dropped it, left it with little life, my heart is no longer beating. I carry my heart now, heart is in my hands, I want the pieces back. I want to live again. I need every piece of my heart. *** I couldn't get you to love me so I killed myself *** It is strange to think, I haven't seen you since a month. I have seen the new moon, but not you. I have seen sunsets and sunrises, but nothing of your beautiful face. The pieces of my broken heart are so small that they could be passed through the eye of a needle. I miss you like the sun misses the flower; like the sun misses the flower in the depths of winter. Instead of beauty to direct its light to, the heart hardens like the frozen world your absence has banished me to. I next compete in the city of Paris, I will find it empty and in the winter if you are not there. Hope guides me, that is what gets me through the day and the night. The hope that after you're gone from my sight, it will not be the last time that I look upon you. *** You took my heart, you broke my heart, you crushed my world in to bits and pieces. So, why, why do I still think of you, why do I still cry for you, why would I still die for you? Why do I miss you? *** i love yu....but yu dont care...need i say more??? *** my heart is ripped...torn into a thousand pieces....scattered across those cherished memories of yu...so we'll always be 2geva...no matta wot... *** When you look back and think you want me back remember you let me go….. *** I would slit my wrist for you The day you told me that you love me It sank so deep; I was drowning in thought, lost for words, speechless as I gaze into your eyes. The tears that flowed down your cheek that very moment soaked my heart making it heavy, I knew it wasn’t mine alone to keep. The way you held my hands so tight drove the words down my spine, a touch that conveyed so much yet so soft. I felt happy inside nevertheless scared of your uttermost sincerity. Will those words of yours pass the test of time? Was it for real or just pass like a dream? With so much questions in the inside yet just you stirring at me from the outside, I took a deep breath and a step closer, with a kiss I said the same words back to you. *** you are the air I breathe in so deep, you are my dream when I fall asleep. can't go on without you here because losing you would be my greatest fear *** I hurt myself, so I can feel alive. *** I was inviting her into my heart, but she was out riding in some other man's car *** How can you be there, when you are so deeply in my heart? *** Love me in a way that nobody has, not for the way I look OR what I’ve done in the past, deeper than what you can imagine me at my best, touching on connections words can’t express. *** everytime i look at you its like im torturing myself .....everytime i see those eyes, i want you a little more i want you to smile at me, like you smile at her... i want you to think about me like you think about her...i want you to kiss me and hold me like you kiss and hold her...i want you to say i love you and mean it like you do with her....i want you to do anything like you would for her......it kills me to say this but deep down no matter how much i want it, i know i will never be "her" *** You haven't felt pain until you can't feel it anymore. Stitches... Ther're digging deeper into my heart. I won't even consider mending it now cause it'll hurt. Medication won't work either. Only time will cure this painstaking feeling. *** The best part of 'believe' is the 'lie'