why oh why

~ ErNiE_aMiRa_sSc_JuLi3J3PoN ~ You held my heart. You took care of it, kept it safe beside yours. Loved it, cherished it, put it on a pedastal. Then you tore it apart piece by piece, you destroyed my heart. You dropped it, left it with little life, my heart is no longer beating. I carry my heart now, heart is in my hands, I want the pieces back. I want to live again. I need every piece of my heart. *** I couldn't get you to love me so I killed myself *** It is strange to think, I haven't seen you since a month. I have seen the new moon, but not you. I have seen sunsets and sunrises, but nothing of your beautiful face. The pieces of my broken heart are so small that they could be passed through the eye of a needle. I miss you like the sun misses the flower; like the sun misses the flower in the depths of winter. Instead of beauty to direct its light to, the heart hardens like the frozen world your absence has banished me to. I next compete in the city of Paris, I will find it empty and in the winter if you are not there. Hope guides me, that is what gets me through the day and the night. The hope that after you're gone from my sight, it will not be the last time that I look upon you. *** You took my heart, you broke my heart, you crushed my world in to bits and pieces. So, why, why do I still think of you, why do I still cry for you, why would I still die for you? Why do I miss you? *** i love yu....but yu dont care...need i say more??? *** my heart is ripped...torn into a thousand pieces....scattered across those cherished memories of yu...so we'll always be 2geva...no matta wot... *** When you look back and think you want me back remember you let me go….. *** I would slit my wrist for you The day you told me that you love me It sank so deep; I was drowning in thought, lost for words, speechless as I gaze into your eyes. The tears that flowed down your cheek that very moment soaked my heart making it heavy, I knew it wasn’t mine alone to keep. The way you held my hands so tight drove the words down my spine, a touch that conveyed so much yet so soft. I felt happy inside nevertheless scared of your uttermost sincerity. Will those words of yours pass the test of time? Was it for real or just pass like a dream? With so much questions in the inside yet just you stirring at me from the outside, I took a deep breath and a step closer, with a kiss I said the same words back to you. *** you are the air I breathe in so deep, you are my dream when I fall asleep. can't go on without you here because losing you would be my greatest fear *** I hurt myself, so I can feel alive. *** I was inviting her into my heart, but she was out riding in some other man's car *** How can you be there, when you are so deeply in my heart? *** Love me in a way that nobody has, not for the way I look OR what I’ve done in the past, deeper than what you can imagine me at my best, touching on connections words can’t express. *** everytime i look at you its like im torturing myself .....everytime i see those eyes, i want you a little more i want you to smile at me, like you smile at her... i want you to think about me like you think about her...i want you to kiss me and hold me like you kiss and hold her...i want you to say i love you and mean it like you do with her....i want you to do anything like you would for her......it kills me to say this but deep down no matter how much i want it, i know i will never be "her" *** You haven't felt pain until you can't feel it anymore. Stitches... Ther're digging deeper into my heart. I won't even consider mending it now cause it'll hurt. Medication won't work either. Only time will cure this painstaking feeling. *** The best part of 'believe' is the 'lie'

~ ErNiE_aMiRa_sSc_JuLi3J3PoN ~ Sometimes you love something so much that it hurts to leave it, but you must. Sometimes it hurts too much to hold on to that thing you love. And sometimes you let go of what you love because it hurts, but then just sometimes... you get it back and live happily ever after. * * * * * * * * * Why do people have to lose things to find out what they really mean? * * * * * * * * * When you are in love and you get hurt, it’s like a cut... it will heal, but there will always be a scar. * * * * * * * * * May God put a spell on you... so you won’t forget me. * * * * * * * * * Whenever I cried he would always make me feel like he would change the world if he could so it couldn't hurt me anymore. But now I’m crying and he's not here * * * * * * * * *. You can close your eyes to things you don’t want to see, but you can’t close your heart to things you don’t want to feel. * * * * * * * * *. When I see you smile and know that it is not for me, that is when I will miss you the most. * * * * * * * * * When you said forever, you meant a few months. When I said forever, I meant every day until I died. When you said always, you meant until you couldn't handle it anymore. When I said always, I meant until time ended. When you said you loved me, you meant I was no different from any other girl. When I said I loved you, I meant I had never felt what I felt for you. * * * * * * * * * was never one to patiently pick up broken fragments and glue them together again and tell myself that the mended whole was as good as new. What is broken is broken -- and I'd rather remember it as it was at its best than mend it and see the broken places as long as I lived. unknown sad love quotes * * * * * * * * *. With you my heart will always stay. With you my thoughts will be every day. You remain to be the one that I regret letting get away. Why didn't I say what I needed to say? You are the one I will always use my wishes on. You are the one I will always wish was never gone. I'll constantly wonder what went wrong. I'll forever think of what I could've did that was never done. * * * * * * * * * I don't miss him, I miss who I thought he was * * * * * * * * * I miss you a little, I guess you could say, a little too much, a little too often, and a little more each day * * * * * * * * *. There's this place in me where your finger prints still rest... your kisses still linger and your whispers softly echo... It's the place where a part of you will forever be a part of me * * * * * * * * * A teardrop is insignificant in a pool of water, but it can touch the soul as it runs down someone’s face. * * * * * * * * *

love note dat marks my love 4 u

~ ErNiE_aMiRa_sSc_JuLi3J3PoN ~ When it rains, you don't see the sun, but it's there. Hope we can be like that. We don't always see each other, but we will always be there for one another. You're everything to me - someone I can count on, someone I believe in… …someone that I love with all my heart. Give laugh to all, but smile to one; Cheeks to all, but lips to one; Luv to all, but heart to one; Let everybody Luv U, but U luv only one. When I Look In To Mirror I See My Half View Because You Are Not There ... You are sweeter than honey. purer than milk. softer than flower. since i have you as my lover, come to me near, i'll kiss ur lips without fear. u'll say, having u is treasure & be wit me for ever If only I could stop thinking about your kisses . If only you weren't so sweet . . . If only I was not madly in love with you . . . Then maybe, just maybe, I wouldn't miss you.. Believe me, you are the one, Whom my heart finds, Whom my mind reminds me of, Whom my destiny wants, Whom I love the most. I... adore you. I cherish you. I am devoted to you. You are like the sunshine so warm, you are like sugar, so sweet. you are like you. and that’s the reason why I love you! Doubt that the stars are fire doubt that the sun don't move doubt truth to be a lie but never doubt my love for you. When it rains, you don't see the sun, but its there. Hope we can be like that. We don't always see each other, but we will always be there for one another. I Wish My Eyes Could Speak What My Heart Feels For You, Coz My Lips Can Lie On What Is True, But My Eyes Couldn't Coz Even If I Close Them I Could Still See You I want to drink the water from your lips I want to hear the movement of your soul I want to touch the sound of your heart I want to be you I only thought about you once today.. I never stopped. I Chose To Love You In our Loneliness For In Your Loneliness No One Owns You , But Me

Its not that I miss you I just miss the feeling of being loved and knowing that no matter what someone is there for me that I can talk to about anything, well all I miss is being loved

~ ErNiE_aMiRa_sSc_JuLi3J3PoN ~ I miss you when something really good happens, because you are the one I want to share it with. I miss you when something is troubling me, because you are the one who understands me so well. I miss you when I laugh and cry because i know that you are the one that makes my laughter grow and my tears disappear. I miss you all the time, but I miss you most when i lay awake at night and think of all the wonderful times we spent with each other; for those were some of the best times of my life . ” I don't write to tell you that I love you, nor to ask you for explanations that now are not on time. I just write you to express my feelings in this short paragraph. I want to tell you that I really loved you as I demonstrated you. I don't know what happened. But It is too late. I hope you can find your love. Good Bye my dear love I tried to convince myself I didn't want you anymore. I just can't let go. I don't want to see you move on, but I'm not doing much about it either. You're two different people and I wish it would stop, because I'm living to die and dieing to live, but it doesnt mean a thing to me, until I have you. I felt so good when I was with you, you made me feel like the world; to hear i was your favorite and the best you ever had. You were not ashamed and would hold my hand anywhere. We'd talk on the phone for hours, and everytime we kissed it felt like i was dreaming. Love felt like heaven when I was with you; and now that you're gone im hurting like hell. I miss you so much, and I wish you were here, but I made the wrong choice and its too late, too many mistakes had been made and i lost you, forever -- but you didnt loose my love because i loved you ever since the day i met you. and ill never forget you, because to me, you are the WORLD When you have come to realize that you miss me.....i wont be missing you. I don't know if i miss YOU or if i just miss the feeling of knowing someone loves me as much or possibly more than i love them. and having the feeling when the one i love defends me and is always there for me when i need them... i dont think you realize how much i miss being able to just go to you, being able to tell you anything and you actually understanding or trying to as much as you can.. i miss that little feeling i got when i was with you!! I miss u when the sun goes down, I miss u txtin me when I'm tryin to sleep, I miss u goin to my wrk, I miss u touching me an makin me smile! I miss u so much it hurts an everyday my heart breaks all over again cause I know u are with her! Yet I still miss you... Before I met you I had no clue what love was all I cared about was myself. Then we found each other and I truly found out what love was. Food lost its flavor, the whole world became hazy to where I don't even remember much of what happened. The only thing that mattered was you and being able to put my arms around you. We didn't even need to say anything, just stand next to each other and share our body heat. My true weakness was in her smile. Her face made me realize that everything was ok in the world and I honestly thought that this had to be heaven. Then when she left me it was honestly the worst feeling in the world. I felt like dieing, no, worse, I felt like dieing 1000000 times or ripping my heart out of my chest hoping and praying that if I did that I wouldn't hurt so much. Loosing a lover is the worst feeling in the world and it does the worst things to you. Ever since then I have never really expressed my self fully in fear that I would feel that kind of pain again

i miss u , i really do ..

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